For the first time in months I spent a few hours this afternoon, in a cafe with coffee, Billie Holliday, and a brand new journal. It was wonderful to just be quiet with my thoughts and watch black ink scrawl across the pages. Something happens when I am in that zone, I stop editing my thoughts, my mind goes quite still and it feels as though a deeper truth is revealed; it is a form of meditation. Afterwards I bought flowers, wandered home and I realised how overwhelmed I have felt lately. By work and deadlines, the demands and obligations to be ‘virtually’ in touch. The twittering, blogging, commenting, and most of all, the endless, banal facebookstatusupdating, it’s bloody exhausting. I have reached the point where I am over Facebook. I am no longer curious about what happened to the blonde girl who made my early school life hell (married, kids, likes Facebook quizzes, is unable to do anything without four exclamation marks), the flatmates I haven’t spoken to since finals, or the colleagues of friends of people I actually worked with. Ecetera.
I feel this need to come back to myself. To write here and in my journal, to read more. To connect with the world around me in a more meaningful and fulfilling way. To breathe and listen and watch.
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I think this is good advice for ALL of us… interesting feelings on Facebook on this side of the pond as well. My first step was to scale down the “friends” to maybe a few people that I truly want to stay connected with…everyone else, DELETE. And if friends want to stay connected, they can follow my blog, right?
I am feeling the need to rationalise as well. I have chucked in twitter as it was doing my head in, I think FB will be next.
Go you!
I have blessedly forgotten I was ever on FB.
:-)
What a superb post. And such a good summary of why Facebook is dying on its arse.
Great post, sas. I love days like that. I’ve never felt hooked by FB or MySpace for exactly the reasons you mention here. For the most part I want a lot of the people in my past to stay right there.
I really like this post. I did lots of journaling while doing my Unravelling, but seem to have lost the momentum now. I need to get back into it. And FB is getting really boring!
Welcome B!
The habit of journaling is definitely back with me.